Thursday, 4 December 2014
The dark days of hormone gremlins...
I am extremely blessed with my life, although I do work blinkin hard to make sure it all works. But I still have 'dark' days like everyone else.
I was once accused of 'living a fake life' because I didn't ever post on facebook that I was having a bad day...well of course I have them.
I just don't see the point in upsetting and depressing everyone else by posting it on facebook...my own humble opinion and choice, if it works for you then that's your choice to make.
But this year I have been hit with the peri menopause and aside from the very inconvenient hot flushes, the hormones are a total pain in the butt (well actually a pain in the lady bumps but you don't need to know that).
Even my Mrs Claus spirit has been dampened a wee bit in the last couple of days. I am tired and listless, no energy and no inclination or inspiration to do very much except build a duvet fort.
But...I am a busy lady with responsibilities - to my husband, my children, my friends, family and our lovely Kitchen Witch students so I cannot retreat totally into the darkness and maybe I shouldn't. For me to be down in the dumps is not easy for those around me to deal with either (especially after the past few weeks of festive energy!) I have been a grumpy pants for a couple of days and as I don't know what to do about it, that makes it even harder for those around me as they don't know what to do with me either!
What is the solution? Well I am not sure that there is one, ladies have been going through this for millenia, I am not the first or the only one nor will I be the last.
So I think it is just a case of dealing with it as best I can. I am extremely lucky to work from home so at least I don't have to battle the traffic and an office (been there, done that for many years, got the t-shirt). So once the school run is done I can at least make my 'duvet fort' a slight reality.
I think sometimes our bodies just tell us what needs to happen and if we don't listen to them we can get into a bit of a pickle.
So today I am working this morning - making sure emails are all answered, homeworks responded to and general admin kept up to date and then I am going to have the afternoon off...a spot of film watching, blanket on the sofa and maybe even a hot chocolate.
I don't think it is possible to 'fight' hormones as such, I have been taking some sage supplements which are helping with the hot flushes but I guess even the magic of herbs can't always beat the hormone gremlins.
As a Witch I listen to nature, I listen to the turning of the Wheel, I listen to my intuition and as a woman I must start to listen to my body and work with it and even those dang hormones too...but I ain't gonna let the buggers win...